Homosexuality and God's Plan

i may not be a devout Christian, attending services on a regular basis and tithing as i was taught, but i do have a strong belief in God. i have accepted Jesus as my savior. i pray often and faithfully. (mostly to say either "thank you" or "please forgive me" but sometimes just to say "so, anything i need to know?") i'm not perfect by any means but i try to live as i believe He would want me to live.

i know He loves me. He loves us all. but i truly believe that He likes me. (i'm sure i make him laugh.) now i'm sure that sometimes he gets that tired look and shakes his head at me much the way my Earthly Father does. so i try a little harder.

for a long time i have wrestled with the whole Gay/Going To Hell thing. i personally have a hard time with it because i can look you in the eyes and tell you without doubt or hesitation that i am just as He made me. so, after much thought and even more prayer, i found peace. i am not going to pretend to "know" anything (as that pisses me off more than most things) but i will gladly share what i believe.

i think that at some point God looked around at all the folks having babies and how big His flock was getting. He thought, "I can see this becoming a problem." There were, of course, the tried and true methods of population control: war, famine, disease, death.

can't you imagine Him thinking, "oh c'mon! I can do better than that." so He decided that if some people fell in love with others of their sex; then their relationships could be happy and fulfilling -- without creating more hungry mouths to feed. (if you think about it, it's a pretty perfect plan and much less messy than the old ways.) 

of course we continue to find ways to screw it up. (damn drunken stupidity and homophobic pressure to conform to a heterosexual lifestyle!) still... this is what i believe is God's Plan for homosexuality -- just every now and then (maybe, say 1 in 10?) the soul of a soon-to-be-born baby gets an extra splash of glitter before he - or she - sets off for the other side.

what gets me is the people who purport to know God's will. here in Pensacola we frequently have people who stand on street corners and yell God's Word at passing cars, amplifying their voices by cupping one hand against their bible. excuse me? i'm supposed to believe you are wise and enlightened when you haven't thought to buy a bullhorn? (you know i like to talk to them -- usually with them trying to end the conversation. but you stand on a public street corner and yell at me on my way to Wal-mart? i think i deserve at least 3 mins for rebuttal.)

or the people who protest abortion at the women's health clinic (just because you are morally offended by abortion, why do i have to see the pictures?? i can't even have an abortion asshole!) when there's a giant liquor store across the street. i could be wrong but if you protested there, you could probably reduce the number of unwanted pregnancies far better than the women's medical clinic. (AND it would give us a nice chance to talk. ;-)